2013: That’s a Wrap.

As I come up for air from one of my busiest work weeks all year, I want you to know I have put considerable thought into my last post for 2013. I wrestled with the notion of looking behind vs. looking ahead. Last year, I looked ahead. I did that – most of all – to make myself accountable. A woman I admire a great deal and who has meant a lot to me through the years, always encouraged me to tell people my goals – even if I was uncertain/scared I could achieve them – as a way to make myself accountable. So that people would then ask me about them and my progress. Somehow, I’ve realized that I no longer need that crutch. Turns out goal achievement has never been a problem of mine so much as the fear and uncertainty that comes with it. And there is no resolution for that. If you’re not a little bit scared of stating a goal, it probably doesn’t mean that much to begin with and is not worth striving for.

2013. Where to begin …

Friends. I left so many behind with the move this past summer. They are in my heart always, I just wish they were on my couch too. And at my dinner table. Some days, I wonder what I am doing. But you have to go find your life. I’m getting closer.

Work. Suffice it to say I continue to be challenged with the work I do. Most days, it feels like I’m running around with my hair on fire. And if I wasn’t, I’d worry something was wrong.

Love. Probably the toughest thing is to see it be so easy for some people to find it or some half-measure of it or get multiple tries at it. Some days, it is suffocating to think it might always be just me in this life. Some days, I don’t care at all. It is not in me to bend to what the world seems to be telling me it wants. Succumbing would shame me.

Life. A look back through my iPhone photos reminds me that what is ordinary to me is actually quite extraordinary stuff. I’ve seen places and met people I never could have imagined when I was seven years old with braces and unspeakably awful hair. So, let me show you …

On a chilly April weekday, I spent upwards of three hours in a green room with these guys. Listening to them tell stories was a blessing and an honor.
On a chilly April weekday, I spent upwards of three hours in a green room with these guys. Listening to them tell stories was a blessing and an honor. Yes, that’s Hank Aaron in the middle.
I saw my alma mater play in the Final Four at the Georgia Dome.
I saw my alma mater play in the Final Four at the Georgia Dome …
... which was an absolute shock considering they got spanked by Georgetown where I saw them play the last time in their storied rivalry.
… which was an absolute shock considering they got spanked by Georgetown where I saw them play the last time in their storied rivalry. Friends don’t let friends become Hoyas.
I caught up with co-workers for some Monday Night Football in my new hometown of ATL. One day, I'll enter the Georgia Dome like a normal ticket holder. One day...
I caught up with co-workers for some Monday Night Football in my new hometown of ATL. One day, I’ll enter the Georgia Dome like a normal ticket holder.
For a change of pace, I was on TV, rather then behind the scenes. The Ricki Lake Show let me speak about what happened to me. It was the first time I really got to do that on TV.
For a change of pace, I was on TV, rather than behind the scenes. The Ricki Lake Show let me speak about what happened to me. It was the first time I have really ever gotten to do that on TV.
And I continued my work on raising awareness about sexual assault by donating to the local rape crisis center and winning this marvelous trophy.
And I continued my work on raising awareness about sexual assault by donating to the local rape crisis center and winning this marvelous trophy.
I led the chants for University of New Haven's Take Back the Night event. They gals seemed uncertain of their voices. Fortunately, I have a very big mouth.
I led the chants for the University of New Haven’s Take Back the Night event. The gals seemed uncertain of their voices. Fortunately, I have a very big mouth.
Bawled like a baby leaving the first and only home I ever purchased. Counterintuitive considering it ripped my heart out.
Bawled like a baby leaving the first and only home I ever purchased. Counterintuitive considering that owning it ripped my heart out.
I said 'goodbye for now' to these two beautiful women who humbled me with their love for me.
I said ‘goodbye for now’ to these two beautiful women who humbled me with their love for me.
and the love of their husbands who were both big brothers and surrogate fathers for me.
… and the love of their husbands who were both big brothers and surrogate fathers for me.
I traded sunrise walks here...
I traded sunrise walks here…
... for sunrise walks here.
… for sunrise walks here.
Still, I managed to squeeze in a visit here. My favorite place to walk in the whole wide world.
Still, I managed to squeeze in a visit here. My favorite place to walk in the whole wide world. I love it.
Speaking of love, I fell more deeply in love with my nephew. How could I not?
Speaking of love, I fell more deeply in love with my nephew. How could I not?
I mean, have you SEEN this kid? I rest my case.
I mean, have you SEEN this child?
Moving on... I cooked my first turkey. That big life moment was rather uneventful. No one died.
Moving on… as I live away from my family, I still managed to create some semblance of a Thanksgiving and cooked my first turkey. That big life moment was rather uneventful. No one died. And yes, I failed  to remove the giblet bag hidden in its cavernous inside.
Also, I discovered the joy of taking a selfie and the filter buttons on my iPhone. Never understood the #nofilter hashtag. Having discovered the wonders of the  filter, I am #TeamFilter.
Also, I discovered the joy of taking a selfie and the filter buttons on my iPhone. Never understood the #nofilter hashtag. Having discovered the wonders of the filter, I am #TeamFilter. This woman looks fabulous, whoever she is.
And I bought my first live tree and figured out my tree decorating motif. Gold, silver and bronze.
And I bought my first live tree and figured out my tree decorating motif: Gold, silver and bronze. And bows.
I was filled with the holiday spirit after a December week in NYC.
I endeavored a live tree because I was filled with the holiday spirit after a December week in NYC.
NYC is still my first love. Grand Central, my heart.
While there, I visited Grand Central, my heart.
And Jessie, she's still the  girl I call for advice. She's always spot on. And she's fun to take photos with.
And I saw Jessie who continues to be fun to take photos with at weddings and who continues to take my phone calls when I am in the midst of a meltdown.

2014. I have no idea what’s in store. Please be just as good to me as 2013.

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